If I’m not happy, it’s not the end.

I can’t wait for Chinaaaaaa πŸ˜€ Actually, I really want to go to Malaysia again. Somehow, I have a very deep connection with Malaysia — yeah, it’s the FOOD. Sooooo, a friend of mine has been asking if I wanna go with them to Malaysia in around August. Yes, yes, yes I waaaannnnttt!! But hopefully it’s August or else I won’t be able to make it. I really really want to eat Malaysian food. Especially Petaling Jaya has awesome food too!

So during my summer holiday, I spent 3 days and 2 nights in Malaysia after coming back from China and HongKong. OMG I had the best experience in my life! Beijing was awesome, good food and super cold while Β HK has awesome dessert and snacks, shopping too! Arrived in KL and went straight for badminton with friends in Petaling Jaya (I think it was near Taman Megah but it was at a school). They have very nice courts — carpets! After badminton, which I hadn’t been playing much in China and didn’t play at all in HK (felt like I hadn’t been playing for ages!), we went to MURNI πŸ˜€

Ice LimauΒ (I think?)

Roti Prata

Roti Kosong

Fried Rice πŸ˜€

Roti Hawaii

Teh Tarik (my favorite)

I really have forgotten what this was

The next day, I was super super hungry in the morning as there was no food and we decided to walk from Bukit Bintang to…. crap I forgot what was this place called. But we decided to take a taxi cause I was too hungry to walk. So we arrived at this place calledΒ Colosseum or something like that. The place is quite old and very British style.

Mee Goreng

Rump Steak or maybe it was Rib Eye?

Ice Limau

After we had our lunch, I was very full. Then mum said, “Let’s walk all the way to Bukit Bintang.” Seriously, that was the longest journey ever. I think it took half an hour to 45 minutes of walk lol. And we went shopping at Pavillion. During dinner, a friend of mine brought us to this restaurant downstairs Pavillion which I couldn’t remember the name and we ordered heaps of food. Actually 3 dishes and we shared everything πŸ˜€

Asam Laksa

After getting super full for dinner, we went to Pasar Malam. I couldn’t remember where it was but apparently it’s the longest pasar malam that has ever recorded on earth! (he said so) I remember it was a Wednesday night.

Colourful Tofu!

They came with different colours and each colour has different flavour πŸ˜€

Stinky Tofu

This thing is my worst nightmare and still is my worst nightmare. The 3 of us, decided to take a bite together. Chris vomited after munching it for a few seconds.I tried to swallow it so hard and yeah I did swallow it. Mum managed to eat 2 of them so she was the winner.

It really smelled like sewer water and probably tasted like one too. OMG it was super super super bloody definitely positively STINKY!!!

As for badminton, I’ve been pretty into mixed doubles lately. I found ladies doubles is just so tiring. Man, I lost to kids the other day LOL. But did pretty well in mixed. Vincent said I did a good job controlling the front shot πŸ˜€ yaaayyy happy! Now I’m thinking to get another Victor racket which is the same with the one that I’m using now but I really really don’t know if I should get 1 cause it’s pretty expensive. But I really like the feeling πŸ˜€ It used to be really heavy for me but it somehow gets lighter now πŸ˜€

Uni…. I’ve been trying to work harder. I really hope this semester will be good as it’s my last semester. I want to graduate! I made a lot of good friends and still making new friends. Very very happy with my life right now as I have awesome people around me πŸ˜€ and yes, I feel really sad having to leave Sydney so soon 😦 I’ve grown too attached with the people here. Stupid visa thingy arghhh!

But anyway if I’m not feeling happy, it’s not the end πŸ˜€



Mid-life Loneliness

I woke up this morning, opening my eyes and searching for my phone in the dark. 7.45am WTF?! I couldn’t sleep as I was holding my pee pretty badly and having stomach problems in the morning was so uncool. After doing whatever things that I did in the morning (which I couldn’t even remember), I crawled to the sofa in the living room and tadaaaa I decided to read a Chinese article. Man, translating it to English was a pain in the ass.

The author wrote a story about his life (assuming he’s a HE) talking about how he felt lonely as he grew older. In that article he said, as us humans grew older, we became wiser and eventually we would figure out who our true friends were. He also mentioned that when we were young, we tend to easily make friends — focusing on teenager — as we might have similar interests and other stuff. But as you grow older, we implement different kind of perspectives and views — and so we walk our own paths.

I grew up without having really really really close friends in highschool — wait, perhaps from junior high or maybe even before that — but I was cool with it. I didn’t mind not having really close friends as long as I have lunch buddy LOL. Having lunch by myself was no fun, I felt like crying. I was more like a type rather than sticking to a group, I mixed around with everyone which I’m still doing until today in Sydney. I like it. Ever since I was young, I’ve been pretty boyish. Until now, I don’t even really dress up like the typical Medan girl. They all just look so wow, pretty and glamorous. I don’t know why I’m not interested in joining their lifestyle. I don’t like branded stuff, or looking pretty bla bla bla. I guess cause I have this mindset that I haven’t reached to that level yet. I’m unemployed and I don’t want to rely on my parents’ money, or spending them just to buy stuff that I-would-rather-spend-the-money-for-epic-food. Thus it explains why I have more guy friends than girlfriends. I had no idea why but I found it really difficult to make friends with girls. So I spent my high school life hanging out with my baddie friends instead of my classmates. I also had no idea why I preferred to go and trained badminton rather than hanging out. Man, my social life… I guess, it was just easier for me to hang out with people that I was comfortable with.

Leaving Medan and studying in Sydney for three years made me realize that there are so many amazing people out there. I really make good friends with people in Sydney — uni friends, badminton friends, etc. When I looked back, I felt lonely. Somehow it made me feel like I had no one waiting for me to come back (except for my family). Well, as we grow older we become wiser. I don’t just simply make friends anymore. I make really good friends. I make friends with awesome people. Eventually, our number of friends will decrease as we get older. I don’t need many many many friends. I don’t mind having only a few friends but will last until breathe my last breath.


One fine hot day, I decided to say “Yes, let’s hang out!” instead of being an anti social. I knew we hadn’t seen each other for ages so I thought that it would be really good to catch up.Β I walked to Texas, where I saw everyone was there. In a blink, I knew I saw him. My heart skipped a beat. It was him, after three whole years, we met again.

Oh yes, everyone teased us. Looking at him in the eyes, man, it was difficult. It was pretty awkward but yeah, I gave him a smile. Having him sitting just right in front of me during lunch — cause the others made us to sit facing each other — then it got me into thinking. Ha, boy.. I would like to say this.

High school was fun. We used to have fun. You used to have a place in my heart. Ha, be proud of it. Distance that tore us apart and time that brought us back. Seeing you again, gave me a really good feeling. I was pretty happy that we could talk like normal again.

“Getting back together?” a friend asked.

I laughed. “Nope. Never.”

It doesn’t mean that I hate him or I already have someone in mind. It was good to be able to fix our friendship again but I won’t pick up on the broken pieces. Puppy love was cute and sweet and it has always been. He is always a sweet guy to me. Whenever I think back to high school, I smile. But boy, I know I’m not in love with you. Not anymore.

It feels really good meeting up with everyone again and I know I have such an awesome life. I feel really grateful for the people I have in my life. For now, I’m really looking forward to China. I can’t waiiiittttt!!!

Dear boy from the other dimension, rest assured. I’m yours.